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Conversations wit Coyfee presents A Man in the Mirror-The B-Fade Story

In Believer who falls into sin, Black Church, Christian Hip Hop, Entertainment, Forgiveness, Spiritual healing on July 8, 2009 at 7:49 am

A Man in the Mirror-The B-Fade Story

Hello family!

This is Coyfee from ConversationswithCoyfee. I wanted to take a bit of your time and introduce you to another amazing lyricist. Who? Yeah, I got you curious now.. Andre Woods aka B-Fade born September 21, 1976… His story of pain and struggle as he made the decision to embrace Christ will awaken a new compassion for the new convert. His life has been seen by some as failure but I will expose the constant attacks of the enemy on his life, his ministry, and of course Matrimony.

Before we jump right into this interview and his story, I encourage you to take some time and remember who you were before Christ. For many of us who we are right now was not who we were while seeking Christ. How many times have we fallen (in secret of course) to bitterness, unforgiveness, drugs, alcohol, pornography, fornication, adultery or even pride. Please if this is where you are ..stop now and confess these things before our Lord Jesus Christ..Are you done? Great now there is absolutely nothing between you and the Lord Jesus Christ.

For those of that have never accepted Jesus..well I would never leave you out..ponder about making this life changing commitment to Jesus as I share this man’s struggle to walk in the paths of righteousness ..

Now to the interview::::

ConversationswitCoyfee: Hello B-Fade. We are very excited to have you as one of our featured artist. Can you tell us how did you come up with the name B-Fade?

B-Fade: COZ (my best friend) and I used to rap together before we got saved and I was known as Fade back then before conversion. After my conversion I became known as Brother Fade. COZ was known as KOZY-K before conversion and just changed the name. GOD’s Child was already working as a Gospel rapper. We were all members of the same church. So we started the group called the ‘Soldiers of Righteousness’. Shortly after this the group seperated and a group was formed with COZ and myself called ‘Christian Brothas.’ I was promoting an event called Soul Saver 2004 on the World Hit Gospel Show (106.1 KMEL), the number 1 radio station in the Bay Area..The DJ, Tinka was really the one that branded me with name B-Fade. I had a passion to be transformed into what God called me to be. B-Fade chosen this meaning to express his goal for his life and ministry-Be Faithful And Dedicated Eternally
bfade
ConversationswitCoyfee: Wow! That’s a very powerful name. I would think that the enemy has tried the persona that the name represents.

B-Fade: Yes, indeed. More than you know

ConversationswitCoyfee: Tell the readers about some of the challenges you have had to walk thru before your conversion?

B-Fade: Man, where do I begin? I guess at the beginning, I was raised in a family where alcohol, violence, and partying were normal. I really had not seen any other type of life. As a child at parties, I would drink the drinks that were left on tables by the adults. I didn’t know that then but that would open doors to a constant struggle with Alcoholism. I grew up in that life doing just what everyone else did, you know. Rapping, drugs (selling and using), fighting, women and just wilding out. Just doing whatever with no thought of tomorrow.

October 1994 I found myself in prison. I got in a fight and I beat the guy so bad. I still didn’t understand all that was in me, the anger. During that fight, I broke almost every bone in his body. While I was waiting in jail to go to court for this issue, other crimes came up and after a lengthly jury trial I was sentenced two years. After prison, you would have thought I would change but no; not yet.

ConversationswithCoyfee: Tell me what really made you change?

B-Fade: I had started using cocaine and alcohol together. This was definitely not a good choice. Even though the cocaine was a recreational drug. My drug of choice was alcohol. During this time I noticed that I was more anxious than usual. However, I kept drinking. Soon I noticed that the anxiousness turned into full blown panic attacks. This was a bit hard to handle for me. I began thinking about stopping but every time I tried to stop..the attacks would worsen. I felt trapped. If I keep drinking then the next day I would have a hangover and a panic attack would start. If I tried to quit ..the panic attack would start..

ConversationswitCoyfee: That must have been a really hard place to be in. What happened next?

B-Fade: I knew Elder Derrick Mann from before, back in the day. EIder Mann was holding a Bible Study in this ladies house near where I used to sell drugs. So I went to Bible Study and the topic was ‘Not being promised to wake up the next day. Everybody was leaving and it seemed like I was all alone. Suddenly a panic attack began and I started to run back to the house where the Bible Study had been held. I started beating on the door but no one answered. I thought I was having a heart attack ..I was sure I was dying. I begin “praying Lord please, just let me live ..I promise to change..I promise to change my life and live for you.” So I started running toward uncoming traffic. I was trying to stop anybody that could help me. One of my homeboys’ girlfriend stopped and dropped me at the hospital. However, the doctors did not find anything physically wrong with me. I contacted Elder Mann he took me to his church called Church Of Jesus Our Lord. This Church was what they called a word church. The teaching was straight out of the word. The pastor’s name is Elder Phillip Tindsley. I was learning a lot about the new life that had been made available in Christ Jesus. The teaching was raw and uncut; easy to understand.

I was still rapping with folks in the secular industry even though I had accepted Christ Jesus. Elder Mann who was into Gospel Rap, taught us how to use our talent for the Kingdom of God. He eventually became a producer in the Gospel Rap genre. He was so persistent and he really labored with us. He never gave up on us. Elder Mann taught us what being saved was all about. He helped us learn how we could have Rap and Jesus. During all of this I was invited and I did perform with the Ying Yeng Twins in a club. I was still learning about my new relationship with God.. I was still having difficulty changing my lifestyle and didn’t want anyone to know. So I hid it… I pretended that I was straight..I wasn’t comfortable with sharing my weaknesses with anyone.

Our church was full of so much love that one time when I didn’t have any food. A guy at my church offered to get me some food. I thought he would bring like bread and peanut butter or something like that. But he decked our kitchen out. He brought steaks, and everything. I mean my kitchen was butt naked before he blessed me. The guy filled the house up with food. Accolades go out to Elder Marcus Brown for being the hands of God.

ConversationswitCoyfee: I remember you mentioned that your family wasn’t saved when you were young. How did your conversion affect your relationship with your family?

B-Fade: When I was a new convert and I had just started attending church. I lived with my dad. My dad was still drinking and told me if I didn’t drink I had to go. He did kick me out because I wouldn’t drink with him anymore. Now I was thinking this Christian thing must not be that good, cause I am homeless and this I didn’t do anything wrong. But God came thru as I would soon he always does. A couples days later, I got a job with Home Depot. A church member rented the studio in the back of her house for $400.00. I started to begin to believe that God really did hear me. But one thing was missing; a wife and family. I was often lonely and sought to find the woman that had been set aside for me. I battled with lonliness and worked hard to keep my thoughts clean. However, I would fine myself involved in sexual immorality.

Please read parts 2 & 3 for the continuation of this controversial interview.

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Conversations wit Coyfee presents A Man in the Mirror-The B-Fade Story-Part 2

In Believer who falls into sin, Black Church, Christian Hip Hop, Entertainment, Forgiveness, Spiritual healing on July 8, 2009 at 7:41 am

Greetings Family

We have been spending time with Andre Woods AKA B-Fade. He is an extraodinary person as well as a minister of the Gospel. He has been sharing with us how his life was before Christ and even of the very personal struggles he faced after he accepted Christ as his Lord. When we left off he was sharing his feelings with us about times of lonliness and the struggle to abstain from sexual immorality. B-Fade was honest to expose his life as a new convert with all of the challenges he faced with money, shelter and also in relationships.

A Man in the Mirror-The B-Fade Story-Part 2

Let’s pick up where we left off with B-Fade telling us about how his first marriage began.

ConversationswitCoyfee: So B, I know you eventually got married. Tell us about how that all came about?

B-fade: The saint, who had rented me the studio, had two daughters. One of the young ladies, would bring me food. She knew I didn’t have a stove and I was impressed with her kindness. At this time, I was still searching for the woman who had my rib. Well, she was extremely kind and I again was lonely. I longed for a women to minister to me, in and out of bed. The thoughts would open the door to a relationship of fornication.

Late one night she came over and the events of that evening changed the nature of our relationship. Now in the meantime, I was still attending services, still seeking God for direction, but sneaking around with her. We had become comfortable with our relationship and would be out in the public often. So we would come up with these elaborate tales to cover the tracks which would often lead to spouts of fornication. However, after the dust would settle she would rush to tell the Elder what we had done. I however, was still sticking to tale we created. If she wasn’t in place they would assume she was with me. She seemed to want to get closer to God but after a few of her confessions, the Elder thought that I was the deterent. That I just didn’t care about the right way to do things. I really didn’t want to disobey them or the Bible but it was so hard not do it. Almost impossible to just abstain. I mean I got most of the blame but even when I would try not to be with her; she would want to. Then afterward she would go back to the Elder and confess for both of us. Then the Elder would come straight to me, telling me to leave her alone. He thought the counsel was working but it would happen again. There would be more than a few occurrences.

The minister would come back and each time the counsel would be more stern. The ministerial staff advise that her and I should stop seeing each other. They said that we both need to get closer to God so that we could build a foundation. We couldn’t seem to stop sinning long enough to hear what they were saying. We decided to refused the church’s counsel and continue to fornicate. As time passed the sermons from the pulpit would address the issues of sex outside of marriage. This became so intense that we both decided to get married and just be done with it.

My pastor refused to marry us and so we were married by my aunt behind the church’s back. We decided to just get married so people would leave us alone. I clearly knew that I didn’t love her and I believe she wasn’t in love with me either. There were problems in our marriage almost immediately. She and I both were being attacked by a spirit of lust which would open the door for adulterous activities later in the marriage. These activities created a violate home environment which eventually pushed me back to alcohol usage. We would struggle to stay together for about two years and the marriage would finally end in divorce.

ConversationswithCoyfee: After you two finally got married, how did adultery come in?

B-fade: There was a tragedy in her family and she was away helping make arraingements. During the time she was away she was spending time with another man. She later confessed that they had kissed and told me that her and him were over. However, she continued to see him for sometime. One of the youth from our church saw her with the young man and that’s how I knew that she was still seeing him. When I would come home, things had changed; she seemed depressed. She would say things like: she didn’t want to be with me anymore and just be out right mean. She would say stuff like that I was ugly and unattractive. Her rejection wounded me and made me more susceptible to the direction that enemy was pushing me towards (adultry).

I was in a group called Christian Brothas and we were invited to do a gospel play. While rehearsing for gospel play, I had met a really pretty lady. She was just being really nice to me and my wife was the absolute opposite. This girl and I were just friends but people were accusing us of sexual immorality. Which opened a dialogue concerning the gossip. We would meet up just to talk about the gossip and what people were saying about us. The next thing we knew we doing exactly what we had been accused of. I didn’t know it then but she lived right up the street from us(my wife and I). By now my wife had stop coming home and if she came it was clear she that she didn’t want to be there.

With the stress of all of this, I was really having a difficult time with the alcohol usage. My wife and I had been arguing when the police saw us. She was talking me back to the place that my car was left at. See a guy was killed directly in front of my car and so my car was a part of the crime scene. The cops arrested me because we were fighting in the car. Plus I was drinking ..so people thought I was responsible for the guy’s murder.

ConversationswitCoyfee: Wow, a lot happened during that time. What do you believe caused you to loose focus?

B-fade: Me. My focus was on me and what I wanted. Not that what I wanted was all wrong but the manner in which I was getting it was. The relationships were not in accordance with the word. When the fire was turned up all sorts of things begin to rise up such as the continual battle with a disease called Alcoholism.

Do you battle with Alcoholism or maybe another drug addiction? Woud you like prayer? Email me and leave your contact information. We will contact you for prayer.
tamee37@yahoo.com

Conversations wit Coyfee presents A Man in the Mirror-The B-Fade Story-Part 3

In Believer who falls into sin, Black Church, Christian Hip Hop, Entertainment, Forgiveness, Spiritual healing on July 8, 2009 at 7:34 am

A Man in the Mirror-The B-Fade Story

Salutations Family!

We have been conducting a very controversial but necessary interview with Andre Woods AKA B-Fade. He has chosen to take the brave step and share times in his life that were some of his deepest darkest moments. He shares with us that even after accepting Jesus as his Lord; the struggle with alcoholism was a continual thorn in his side.

Please stay with us as we share the final portion of this heart wrenching interview with B-Fade.

This is the final part of the B-Fade story. Let’s go right into the Interview.

ConversationswitCoyfee: What do you feel like the repercussions of having lost focus were?

B-Fade: Well, the repercussions were not immediately visible. Shortly after the divorce, I had my own place and I was doing really well. However, the sinful lifestyle that had been gently sneaking up on me had finally over-taken me. I found myself doing things like partying, drinking, and just hanging out with old friends. Now looking back on it the marriage had taken a toll on me. It had weaken me and I was not even aware of it. The stress of being in a loveless marriage was really hard and before I knew it I had lost everything. My car, my place, my job, and even my cell phone. I knew I had hit rock bottom because I had lost the most important of my possessions; my self respect but hadn’t realized it then. I had planned a ministry trip and was thinking about not going. How could I minister in the shape I was in?

ConversationswitCoyfee: What happened next?

B-Fade: Well, I had planned a trip to LA before everything else had happened. So I decided to go ahead and make the trip. When I got there Nate Dog was there while we ministering. I was told he later gave his life to God. That encouraged me greatly. I felt like even though I was in such a mess on the outside; God could still used me in a marvelous way.

I knew I had to get it together and so I did. Every time God would bless me ..the enemy would do something to knock me back. I however, held on to God this time. I was going to allow the word and the spirit of God to change me. It would be harder than I had ever imagined. It isn’t easy stopping things that you have done most of your life and many times these are not things that you stop overnight. The spirit of God has to deliver you and that is what I was seeking God for; deliverance..freedom.

ConversationwitCoyfee: B-Fade you mentioned that you are married now. How did you meet your current wife?

B-Fade: That’s sort of a funny story. She was seeking a church that had Gospel rap. So she went on the internet and starting hitting up Gospel rappers’ pages on Myspace. So I had been divorced for sometime now and was doing pretty good. They were allowing me to minister at my church and I was more aware of my weakness as a man of God. So when I saw her message, I responded. I told her some stuff about the ministry and then gave her directions and she came. I was stationed at the door so I saw her when she walked in. I was like wow, she is beautiful. I remembered how I had gotten in trouble before so I gave her over to the ministers to encourage her. However we started talking and stuff. We began grow closer and I went over a couple of times. We remained faithful to our teaching, however, we both realized that we were developing feelings for each other.

It was little difficult for me cause I was living out of the area and would have drive home late at night. It was about a hour drive. She was helping me study for a test so that I could get a better job. This night she was like you don’t have to drive home tonight. You can stay over tonight. I already knew I loved her and wanted to express my love for her. So I sat downstairs hoping she would come back downstairs. She did, we celebrated our love for one another. please do not mis-understand, we new that coming together without first being married was wrong. However we loved each other. To me she was already my wife. It was not a one night stand or anything. This was and still is the real thing.

We decided to go to the ministerial staff so they could counsel us cause we wanted to get married but we didn’t tell them we had already been intimate. We wanted to know how to date the christian way. So I schooled Priscilla (my wife) on what and how to say. The next time we were intimate she was over come with guilt and she went to the ministerial staff. After she confessed it, the pastor told me that I had to stop rapping. He said that he was disappointed in me. He had not forgotten the manner of my last relationship though years had pasted. So he advised us to leave each other alone and he sat me down. I was headed down the same road as before or so it seemed. We had made the required changed and but continued to date without the sinning. Things looked hopeful and I knew I loved this woman.

One Friday night after service my ex-wife showed up and the two ladies exchanged words which led to a heated confrontation in the back of the church. Priscilla and I decided to leave because it just seemed like I was causing to much trouble in that church. Maybe about two weeks after we left we seriously began to discuss marriage. I knew that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her and wasn’t ashamed of it. We just decided to get married at the court house and find a new place to worship that didn’t know either of us. We did get married and started looking for a place to worship.

ConversationswitCoyfee: How are things going so far?

B-Fade: We are expecting a baby anytime now and our relationship is transitioning. We went thru some marital struggles that begin to tear the fabric of our marriage apart. When the pressure of the institution of marriage began we started a aggressive search for a ministry. My wife wanted to belong to a family; a place to worship. I was looking for a ministry that reminded me of the old church. So we continued to search but I began to fall backwards. Things were really difficult and I began drinking again. I honestly believe it is because of the pressure, the absence of the support of a church family and we were experiencing financial delay. She was angry with me because I had gotten a DUI. I was upset with her and sat in the car. I fell asleep after drinking. Someone called the police because I was asleep in a parking lot and they gave me a DUI. Mind you I was not drinking while driving but just sleeping after drinking. They gave me a DUI anyway.

So she went back to our old church and feeling scare of what was going on with me. She confided in them and told everything that was going on with me. She requested counseling for us and she had attended a couple of services.
Before I knew we were there worshiping as a married couple. But we were still getting dirty looks and stuff. Then they began to prophesy things from the pulpit and this made it uncomfortable for her. After that my ex-wife would show up and my wife just decided to just leave permanently.

It became so difficult for us to hold it together that we thought it was best to separate for a season. I didn’t have any where to go so I moved in with a close friend and his family. His name is QHeem. I began to visit QHeem’s church. I had set up ground rules for how my wife and I should handle things after we reconciled but then we had to move into a shelter. We had to vacate our apartment. We were only at the shelter for one night. I continued to attend QHeem’s church and continued to pray for strength and direction. Later that week we moved into a huge house with seven bedrooms where each one was rented to a different tenant. My wife and I got the master bedroom.

I contemplated giving up on my family but did not. Please pray for us as I receive treatment for the disease that has plagued me on and off for most of my adult life, Alcoholism.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>This just in: Priscilla and Andre AKA B-Fade are embracing life as a married couple and giving all of us the imagine of Christ and His Bride ….Which is filled with Forgiveness …Celebrate B’s restoration and his redemption<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<


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This has been the story of B-Fade’s life before and after Christ. We hope it has encouraged you to get up and try it again. If you are struggling with any of these problems and would like prayer, please email me and one of us will be happy to pray with you..If you would like to recieve Christ please email one of us and we will be happy to contact you for prayer..

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