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ConversationswitCoyfee presents A Tragedy:Marijuana Found at Michael Jackson’s Home

In Entertainment, Marijuana Found at Michael Jackson's Home, Uncategorized on August 28, 2009 at 1:03 pm

Hello Folks..I have unpacking..my family and I moved out of the state..So I pray all has been well with everyone..

I am truly not suprised that illegal drugs were found..I am however disappointed that his family was not able to intervene to save him..

Coyfee signing off…

 

Marijuana Found at Michael Jackson’s Home

By Howard Breuer

Originally posted Thursday August 27, 2009 07:20 PM EDT

Michael Jackson Photo by: Carlo Allegri / Getty
Marijuana Found at Michael Jackson's Home | Michael Jackson

Marijuana and numerous empty drug bottles were found by police officers at Michael Jackson’s home shortly after he died, according to search warrants unsealed on Thursday.

Two bags of marijuana, a bottle of temazepam (used to treat sleeplessness), empty bottles of the sedatives lorzaepam and diazepam were discovered during the search. They also found four other empty pill bottles with no indication as to what may have been in them.

Detectives were concerned that, when Jackson died, he had “received injection of an unknown medication, prior to his death,” the warrants say. Other documents revealed that Jackson’s doctor, Conrad Murray, had been giving the singer the anesthetic propofol intravenously.

The search warrants were served on June 29, four days after the singer was pronounced dead at UCLA Medical Center, where Murray was less than forthcoming. Murray, according to documents, left the hospital “against the objections of the investigating officers” and they were not able to talk with him in the days that followed.

The warrant also says that, on the day of Jackson’s death, as investigators were at the house, “family members of the decedent notified Los Angeles County Coroner’s Assistant Chief Ed Winter that they had located a quantity of tar heroin in [Jackson’s] bedroom on the second floor of the residence. Winter notified LAPD detectives of the found evidence.” There is no mention in the warrant if the evidence really turned out to be heroin.

Winter told PEOPLE on Thursday that he cannot discuss the evidence or say when the results of Jackson’s autopsy will be revealed.

ConversationswitCoyfee presents A Man’s Point View: What is True Love?

In A Man's Point Of View, A man's Version of the Dating Game, Dating and the Single Woman, expressing her support for the troops as they prepared to invade Iraq, Forgiveness, Spiritual healing, Uncategorized, What is True Love?, women talk on August 8, 2009 at 11:38 am

Hi Guys and Gals..

I have been pondering the same thing.  This peace submitted by one of my close friends is an interesting topic. LOVE..I must be honest and share that I think I have been chasing it all of my adult life. LOVE..someone to hold me when I am scare..someone to caress me when I am lonely..someone to assure me that all will be well when I am uncertain..someone to be amazed by every inch of me..adoring the very dimples on even my thighs..(I am a big girl) smile..

I have hoped that one day a man will enter my life and be the missing link but until then I live..to the fullest..not down trotten..not angry..not forgetting to every breath as a gift from God. I will live everyday to the absolute fullest..if that MAN never arrives..I will have lived everyday to the absolute extreme..AND Love should it tarry will be a welcome guess in my home…

For now the LOVE of GOD is usual and eternal. He never stops loving us even when we forget that He is there..

Coyfee signing off…

What is True Love?

Posted on August 6, 2009 by theoraclemag

love canvasWhat we could use in the world today more then anything else is love. True love, real love. If mankind had authentic love for one another, war, world hunger, homelessness, abuse, crime and so on would all come to an end. Love begins and ends with GOD. He is the author. It was created by him and out of his nature. When we, as Christians were filled with the Holy Spirit, he gave us the spirit of love as a gift. It is his desire that we share this gift with all that we come in contact with. We are most like GOD when we show love. In truth The Bible records the greatest love story ever written, GOD’s unconditional love for his that sent his “Sun” to die on the cross (John 3:16; 1 John 4:10).

Love is more then attribute of GOD. It is in fact apart of his nature (Dueut. 7:7-8). According to the Bible “GOD is love,” that is he is the personification of love (1 Jn 4:8, 16). This type of love out reaches human understanding (Eph. 3:19). The love of GOD is everlasting (Jer. 31:3), free (Hos. 14:4) sacrificial (Jn 3:16), and enduring to the end (Jn 13:1).

In GOD’s Word there are two different Greek words that mean “to love.” The word phileo means “to have ardent affection and feeling,” a brotherly love. This is why Phillidphia is known as “the city of brotherly love.” The word “agapao” means “to have esteem or high regard”

GOD blessed Each of us with spiritual gifts. Shamefully many of us use these gifts to glorify ourselves. According to 1 Corinthians 13:2 this has nothing to do with love. But then in verse 3 of the same chapter Paul teaches that giving with out true love is pointless. If we give to feed our pride, we are giving in vain!

Remember we said “GOD is love” and love is his nature. 1 Cor. 13: 4-7 list the Characteristics of love which so happen to be the characteristics of GOD. Love “is patient,” meaning it suffers long with people.; no matter the evil and the injury done by a person; no matter the neglect from a loved one, without anger. Love “is kind,” meaning it is good, helpful and giving. It does not hurt. Love does not envy; it does not get Jealous. Love does not boast; does not brag or seek honor or recognition. Love is not proud or arrogant and conceited. It’s not about thinking your better then others. Love is not rude. It is full of order and control. It does not shame itself. Love is not self seeking, meaning its not selfish. It seeks to serve. Love is not easily angered, not ready to take offense. Not “touchy.” Love keeps no record of wrongs, does not consider the wrong suffered. It suffers the evil done to it and forgets it Love does not delight in evil or take pleasure of the sin of others Love rejoices when the truth is rooted and grounded in a person and among all people. Love Protects and bears all things. The Word protects or bears means both to cover all things and to bear up under all things. Love always trusts. It is completely trusting. It accepts and believes the very best about a person Love always hopes; it never stops hoping. It expects the good to eventfully triumph. Love always preserves. The word preserves is a military word meaning to stand against the attack of an enemy. Love is strong and full of fight.

But are you full of Love?

ConversationswitCoyfee presents Poverty and The Single Mother

In Black Church, Forgiveness, Homeless Women, women talk on July 11, 2009 at 10:02 am

 

Poverty and The Single Mother

This essay is a brief of a story that I read in college. I must be honest and share that I am at lost on the author but the feelings reflected thru the writings are truly life altering…please read and reflex..lastly repositon your own thoughts,prejudices, and fears about the subject of homelessness…..by Coyfee from ConversationswitCoyfee

The thought of poverty woke up fears inside of me that I have harbored for years. The fear that as a single parent myself and my children might end up homeless. I have cried many nights when there seemed like the life she describes so vividly, would be a reality for us, again. Watching a homeless person while she brought me into her world. I could smell the stink she she mentioned. I could see the decay on her teeth. I could feel the shame as her hope crawled out the window leaving her desperate and in deep despair. Please my friends as we watch our president make his way to other countries that have starving and homeless mothers everywhere,please do not turn a blind eye to the ones in your very own cities, your neighborhoods, the subway or train stations, the bus stations, the resturants..Please I plead with you..lay the judgement and prejudice down..pick up the commandment to love thy neighbor as thyself.

 Can you see her skin aging prematurely because of the constant emotional pain. I do not want to imagine the valley of decision she had to live in. She never slept because she had to always stay awake to fight the roaches away from her kids. Can you imagine having to give your children sour milk because the refrigerator does not work? Could you imagine the smell of urine on the mattress where you have to sleep and without any sheets on it. I believed she was pleading with us to look at those afflicted with poverty thru an angry heart, anger that will help you help her and others like her. She reminds us that the poor are always silent.

She begs us not to be silent any longer. She is pleading with us to bring attention to this peculiar institution of poverty, not to allow the world to turn a blind eye to those who are silent.   The purpose of this writing is to bring national attention to the injustice of poverty. I believe does an excellent job of inviting you into her world. She is so descriptive about the smells of urine and sour milk, that you have to smell the stink. Her world is one of dread and pain. Her world is desperate and has little hope for change. This story made me realize that no matter how hard it seems it is not as hard as her life was. I am still blessed and my children are fortunate to have a home with clean linen. They are blessed to have hot meals and clean clothing. We must focus on irradiating poverty, this should be one of the many issues before the state legislators. Our government needs to address this peculiar institution, the institution of poverty. If we will ensure success in our country and improvement in our economy we must address the poverty.

My friends as I think about our role in society, in our neighborhoods, in our entertainment venues, in our places of work and lastly in our places of fellowship; why are their families still homeless? Why are single mothers still having to decide to work or take care of their children. We have saw several cases where young mothers must leave their children home alone to go to work. If they do not work, they do not eat. Why? I desire to stir up your spirit and possibly push you off of yuor comfortable chairs and into a place I call “do something”. What should do? I am so glad you asked. There hundreds of agencies that need volunteers. I am certain that some of neighbors could use extra pampers or maybe milk. Food. Clothing. I do encourage donations but often the red tape between the agency and the family is far to lengthy.  Just give a little something..just a lit..I promise you will feel better the moment you do..

Can I share with you that myself and my children were in a shelter for about three to five months. It was embarassing, shameful, and really difficult. My now ex husband had become abusive and he had choked me in front of my children. I will be somewhat opague about the happenings that drove my family and myself to a shelter. I believe that we as people often pre-judge a person by what we see. So now understand when people found out that we lived in a shelter; they of course thought maybe I was on drugs, or alcohol. Maybe I wouldn’t pay my bills or I was just a lazy mother that sat around and waited on the government to take care of me. Maybe I had decided to get pregnant to keep getting more money from the government. None of that was true. My job at a fortune 500 company had ended and my children and myself were living off my unemployment. Their dad would not pay the support that had been ordered. I must share with you that it is dreadly challenging to go from $1400 dollars every two weeks to $1000. Please keep in mind that when we were married we accumulated quite a bit of debit that was left for me to deal with. I think should also include the fact that I am the proud but single mother of five amazing teenagers, age 18.5 to 12.5.

The shelter was crowded. There were two families to each room. I did make friends and created some lifelong friendships but the fact remains that when we listed the shelter as our address we were looked at differently. Landlords would not rent to us easily. Agencies gave us the damaged donations and were quite hurtful in counseling sessions. This was one of the most painful experiences that we (my family) has had to walk thru. I only share this in hopes that the next time you see a mother and her child(ren) you will allow the Spirit of God to usher in a sense of compassion and not judgement.

Lastly wanted to share this cartoon, though not completely about women and children. I believe it is a clear reflection of America …

Talk2Me>>>Tell me how this story possibly changed your opinion of homelessness? If not tell me why you believe it didn’t?

Please leave comments…

Conversations wit Coyfee presents A Man in the Mirror-The B-Fade Story

In Believer who falls into sin, Black Church, Christian Hip Hop, Entertainment, Forgiveness, Spiritual healing on July 8, 2009 at 7:49 am

A Man in the Mirror-The B-Fade Story

Hello family!

This is Coyfee from ConversationswithCoyfee. I wanted to take a bit of your time and introduce you to another amazing lyricist. Who? Yeah, I got you curious now.. Andre Woods aka B-Fade born September 21, 1976… His story of pain and struggle as he made the decision to embrace Christ will awaken a new compassion for the new convert. His life has been seen by some as failure but I will expose the constant attacks of the enemy on his life, his ministry, and of course Matrimony.

Before we jump right into this interview and his story, I encourage you to take some time and remember who you were before Christ. For many of us who we are right now was not who we were while seeking Christ. How many times have we fallen (in secret of course) to bitterness, unforgiveness, drugs, alcohol, pornography, fornication, adultery or even pride. Please if this is where you are ..stop now and confess these things before our Lord Jesus Christ..Are you done? Great now there is absolutely nothing between you and the Lord Jesus Christ.

For those of that have never accepted Jesus..well I would never leave you out..ponder about making this life changing commitment to Jesus as I share this man’s struggle to walk in the paths of righteousness ..

Now to the interview::::

ConversationswitCoyfee: Hello B-Fade. We are very excited to have you as one of our featured artist. Can you tell us how did you come up with the name B-Fade?

B-Fade: COZ (my best friend) and I used to rap together before we got saved and I was known as Fade back then before conversion. After my conversion I became known as Brother Fade. COZ was known as KOZY-K before conversion and just changed the name. GOD’s Child was already working as a Gospel rapper. We were all members of the same church. So we started the group called the ‘Soldiers of Righteousness’. Shortly after this the group seperated and a group was formed with COZ and myself called ‘Christian Brothas.’ I was promoting an event called Soul Saver 2004 on the World Hit Gospel Show (106.1 KMEL), the number 1 radio station in the Bay Area..The DJ, Tinka was really the one that branded me with name B-Fade. I had a passion to be transformed into what God called me to be. B-Fade chosen this meaning to express his goal for his life and ministry-Be Faithful And Dedicated Eternally
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ConversationswitCoyfee: Wow! That’s a very powerful name. I would think that the enemy has tried the persona that the name represents.

B-Fade: Yes, indeed. More than you know

ConversationswitCoyfee: Tell the readers about some of the challenges you have had to walk thru before your conversion?

B-Fade: Man, where do I begin? I guess at the beginning, I was raised in a family where alcohol, violence, and partying were normal. I really had not seen any other type of life. As a child at parties, I would drink the drinks that were left on tables by the adults. I didn’t know that then but that would open doors to a constant struggle with Alcoholism. I grew up in that life doing just what everyone else did, you know. Rapping, drugs (selling and using), fighting, women and just wilding out. Just doing whatever with no thought of tomorrow.

October 1994 I found myself in prison. I got in a fight and I beat the guy so bad. I still didn’t understand all that was in me, the anger. During that fight, I broke almost every bone in his body. While I was waiting in jail to go to court for this issue, other crimes came up and after a lengthly jury trial I was sentenced two years. After prison, you would have thought I would change but no; not yet.

ConversationswithCoyfee: Tell me what really made you change?

B-Fade: I had started using cocaine and alcohol together. This was definitely not a good choice. Even though the cocaine was a recreational drug. My drug of choice was alcohol. During this time I noticed that I was more anxious than usual. However, I kept drinking. Soon I noticed that the anxiousness turned into full blown panic attacks. This was a bit hard to handle for me. I began thinking about stopping but every time I tried to stop..the attacks would worsen. I felt trapped. If I keep drinking then the next day I would have a hangover and a panic attack would start. If I tried to quit ..the panic attack would start..

ConversationswitCoyfee: That must have been a really hard place to be in. What happened next?

B-Fade: I knew Elder Derrick Mann from before, back in the day. EIder Mann was holding a Bible Study in this ladies house near where I used to sell drugs. So I went to Bible Study and the topic was ‘Not being promised to wake up the next day. Everybody was leaving and it seemed like I was all alone. Suddenly a panic attack began and I started to run back to the house where the Bible Study had been held. I started beating on the door but no one answered. I thought I was having a heart attack ..I was sure I was dying. I begin “praying Lord please, just let me live ..I promise to change..I promise to change my life and live for you.” So I started running toward uncoming traffic. I was trying to stop anybody that could help me. One of my homeboys’ girlfriend stopped and dropped me at the hospital. However, the doctors did not find anything physically wrong with me. I contacted Elder Mann he took me to his church called Church Of Jesus Our Lord. This Church was what they called a word church. The teaching was straight out of the word. The pastor’s name is Elder Phillip Tindsley. I was learning a lot about the new life that had been made available in Christ Jesus. The teaching was raw and uncut; easy to understand.

I was still rapping with folks in the secular industry even though I had accepted Christ Jesus. Elder Mann who was into Gospel Rap, taught us how to use our talent for the Kingdom of God. He eventually became a producer in the Gospel Rap genre. He was so persistent and he really labored with us. He never gave up on us. Elder Mann taught us what being saved was all about. He helped us learn how we could have Rap and Jesus. During all of this I was invited and I did perform with the Ying Yeng Twins in a club. I was still learning about my new relationship with God.. I was still having difficulty changing my lifestyle and didn’t want anyone to know. So I hid it… I pretended that I was straight..I wasn’t comfortable with sharing my weaknesses with anyone.

Our church was full of so much love that one time when I didn’t have any food. A guy at my church offered to get me some food. I thought he would bring like bread and peanut butter or something like that. But he decked our kitchen out. He brought steaks, and everything. I mean my kitchen was butt naked before he blessed me. The guy filled the house up with food. Accolades go out to Elder Marcus Brown for being the hands of God.

ConversationswitCoyfee: I remember you mentioned that your family wasn’t saved when you were young. How did your conversion affect your relationship with your family?

B-Fade: When I was a new convert and I had just started attending church. I lived with my dad. My dad was still drinking and told me if I didn’t drink I had to go. He did kick me out because I wouldn’t drink with him anymore. Now I was thinking this Christian thing must not be that good, cause I am homeless and this I didn’t do anything wrong. But God came thru as I would soon he always does. A couples days later, I got a job with Home Depot. A church member rented the studio in the back of her house for $400.00. I started to begin to believe that God really did hear me. But one thing was missing; a wife and family. I was often lonely and sought to find the woman that had been set aside for me. I battled with lonliness and worked hard to keep my thoughts clean. However, I would fine myself involved in sexual immorality.

Please read parts 2 & 3 for the continuation of this controversial interview.

Conversations wit Coyfee presents A Man in the Mirror-The B-Fade Story-Part 2

In Believer who falls into sin, Black Church, Christian Hip Hop, Entertainment, Forgiveness, Spiritual healing on July 8, 2009 at 7:41 am

Greetings Family

We have been spending time with Andre Woods AKA B-Fade. He is an extraodinary person as well as a minister of the Gospel. He has been sharing with us how his life was before Christ and even of the very personal struggles he faced after he accepted Christ as his Lord. When we left off he was sharing his feelings with us about times of lonliness and the struggle to abstain from sexual immorality. B-Fade was honest to expose his life as a new convert with all of the challenges he faced with money, shelter and also in relationships.

A Man in the Mirror-The B-Fade Story-Part 2

Let’s pick up where we left off with B-Fade telling us about how his first marriage began.

ConversationswitCoyfee: So B, I know you eventually got married. Tell us about how that all came about?

B-fade: The saint, who had rented me the studio, had two daughters. One of the young ladies, would bring me food. She knew I didn’t have a stove and I was impressed with her kindness. At this time, I was still searching for the woman who had my rib. Well, she was extremely kind and I again was lonely. I longed for a women to minister to me, in and out of bed. The thoughts would open the door to a relationship of fornication.

Late one night she came over and the events of that evening changed the nature of our relationship. Now in the meantime, I was still attending services, still seeking God for direction, but sneaking around with her. We had become comfortable with our relationship and would be out in the public often. So we would come up with these elaborate tales to cover the tracks which would often lead to spouts of fornication. However, after the dust would settle she would rush to tell the Elder what we had done. I however, was still sticking to tale we created. If she wasn’t in place they would assume she was with me. She seemed to want to get closer to God but after a few of her confessions, the Elder thought that I was the deterent. That I just didn’t care about the right way to do things. I really didn’t want to disobey them or the Bible but it was so hard not do it. Almost impossible to just abstain. I mean I got most of the blame but even when I would try not to be with her; she would want to. Then afterward she would go back to the Elder and confess for both of us. Then the Elder would come straight to me, telling me to leave her alone. He thought the counsel was working but it would happen again. There would be more than a few occurrences.

The minister would come back and each time the counsel would be more stern. The ministerial staff advise that her and I should stop seeing each other. They said that we both need to get closer to God so that we could build a foundation. We couldn’t seem to stop sinning long enough to hear what they were saying. We decided to refused the church’s counsel and continue to fornicate. As time passed the sermons from the pulpit would address the issues of sex outside of marriage. This became so intense that we both decided to get married and just be done with it.

My pastor refused to marry us and so we were married by my aunt behind the church’s back. We decided to just get married so people would leave us alone. I clearly knew that I didn’t love her and I believe she wasn’t in love with me either. There were problems in our marriage almost immediately. She and I both were being attacked by a spirit of lust which would open the door for adulterous activities later in the marriage. These activities created a violate home environment which eventually pushed me back to alcohol usage. We would struggle to stay together for about two years and the marriage would finally end in divorce.

ConversationswithCoyfee: After you two finally got married, how did adultery come in?

B-fade: There was a tragedy in her family and she was away helping make arraingements. During the time she was away she was spending time with another man. She later confessed that they had kissed and told me that her and him were over. However, she continued to see him for sometime. One of the youth from our church saw her with the young man and that’s how I knew that she was still seeing him. When I would come home, things had changed; she seemed depressed. She would say things like: she didn’t want to be with me anymore and just be out right mean. She would say stuff like that I was ugly and unattractive. Her rejection wounded me and made me more susceptible to the direction that enemy was pushing me towards (adultry).

I was in a group called Christian Brothas and we were invited to do a gospel play. While rehearsing for gospel play, I had met a really pretty lady. She was just being really nice to me and my wife was the absolute opposite. This girl and I were just friends but people were accusing us of sexual immorality. Which opened a dialogue concerning the gossip. We would meet up just to talk about the gossip and what people were saying about us. The next thing we knew we doing exactly what we had been accused of. I didn’t know it then but she lived right up the street from us(my wife and I). By now my wife had stop coming home and if she came it was clear she that she didn’t want to be there.

With the stress of all of this, I was really having a difficult time with the alcohol usage. My wife and I had been arguing when the police saw us. She was talking me back to the place that my car was left at. See a guy was killed directly in front of my car and so my car was a part of the crime scene. The cops arrested me because we were fighting in the car. Plus I was drinking ..so people thought I was responsible for the guy’s murder.

ConversationswitCoyfee: Wow, a lot happened during that time. What do you believe caused you to loose focus?

B-fade: Me. My focus was on me and what I wanted. Not that what I wanted was all wrong but the manner in which I was getting it was. The relationships were not in accordance with the word. When the fire was turned up all sorts of things begin to rise up such as the continual battle with a disease called Alcoholism.

Do you battle with Alcoholism or maybe another drug addiction? Woud you like prayer? Email me and leave your contact information. We will contact you for prayer.
tamee37@yahoo.com

Conversations wit Coyfee presents A Man in the Mirror-The B-Fade Story-Part 3

In Believer who falls into sin, Black Church, Christian Hip Hop, Entertainment, Forgiveness, Spiritual healing on July 8, 2009 at 7:34 am

A Man in the Mirror-The B-Fade Story

Salutations Family!

We have been conducting a very controversial but necessary interview with Andre Woods AKA B-Fade. He has chosen to take the brave step and share times in his life that were some of his deepest darkest moments. He shares with us that even after accepting Jesus as his Lord; the struggle with alcoholism was a continual thorn in his side.

Please stay with us as we share the final portion of this heart wrenching interview with B-Fade.

This is the final part of the B-Fade story. Let’s go right into the Interview.

ConversationswitCoyfee: What do you feel like the repercussions of having lost focus were?

B-Fade: Well, the repercussions were not immediately visible. Shortly after the divorce, I had my own place and I was doing really well. However, the sinful lifestyle that had been gently sneaking up on me had finally over-taken me. I found myself doing things like partying, drinking, and just hanging out with old friends. Now looking back on it the marriage had taken a toll on me. It had weaken me and I was not even aware of it. The stress of being in a loveless marriage was really hard and before I knew it I had lost everything. My car, my place, my job, and even my cell phone. I knew I had hit rock bottom because I had lost the most important of my possessions; my self respect but hadn’t realized it then. I had planned a ministry trip and was thinking about not going. How could I minister in the shape I was in?

ConversationswitCoyfee: What happened next?

B-Fade: Well, I had planned a trip to LA before everything else had happened. So I decided to go ahead and make the trip. When I got there Nate Dog was there while we ministering. I was told he later gave his life to God. That encouraged me greatly. I felt like even though I was in such a mess on the outside; God could still used me in a marvelous way.

I knew I had to get it together and so I did. Every time God would bless me ..the enemy would do something to knock me back. I however, held on to God this time. I was going to allow the word and the spirit of God to change me. It would be harder than I had ever imagined. It isn’t easy stopping things that you have done most of your life and many times these are not things that you stop overnight. The spirit of God has to deliver you and that is what I was seeking God for; deliverance..freedom.

ConversationwitCoyfee: B-Fade you mentioned that you are married now. How did you meet your current wife?

B-Fade: That’s sort of a funny story. She was seeking a church that had Gospel rap. So she went on the internet and starting hitting up Gospel rappers’ pages on Myspace. So I had been divorced for sometime now and was doing pretty good. They were allowing me to minister at my church and I was more aware of my weakness as a man of God. So when I saw her message, I responded. I told her some stuff about the ministry and then gave her directions and she came. I was stationed at the door so I saw her when she walked in. I was like wow, she is beautiful. I remembered how I had gotten in trouble before so I gave her over to the ministers to encourage her. However we started talking and stuff. We began grow closer and I went over a couple of times. We remained faithful to our teaching, however, we both realized that we were developing feelings for each other.

It was little difficult for me cause I was living out of the area and would have drive home late at night. It was about a hour drive. She was helping me study for a test so that I could get a better job. This night she was like you don’t have to drive home tonight. You can stay over tonight. I already knew I loved her and wanted to express my love for her. So I sat downstairs hoping she would come back downstairs. She did, we celebrated our love for one another. please do not mis-understand, we new that coming together without first being married was wrong. However we loved each other. To me she was already my wife. It was not a one night stand or anything. This was and still is the real thing.

We decided to go to the ministerial staff so they could counsel us cause we wanted to get married but we didn’t tell them we had already been intimate. We wanted to know how to date the christian way. So I schooled Priscilla (my wife) on what and how to say. The next time we were intimate she was over come with guilt and she went to the ministerial staff. After she confessed it, the pastor told me that I had to stop rapping. He said that he was disappointed in me. He had not forgotten the manner of my last relationship though years had pasted. So he advised us to leave each other alone and he sat me down. I was headed down the same road as before or so it seemed. We had made the required changed and but continued to date without the sinning. Things looked hopeful and I knew I loved this woman.

One Friday night after service my ex-wife showed up and the two ladies exchanged words which led to a heated confrontation in the back of the church. Priscilla and I decided to leave because it just seemed like I was causing to much trouble in that church. Maybe about two weeks after we left we seriously began to discuss marriage. I knew that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her and wasn’t ashamed of it. We just decided to get married at the court house and find a new place to worship that didn’t know either of us. We did get married and started looking for a place to worship.

ConversationswitCoyfee: How are things going so far?

B-Fade: We are expecting a baby anytime now and our relationship is transitioning. We went thru some marital struggles that begin to tear the fabric of our marriage apart. When the pressure of the institution of marriage began we started a aggressive search for a ministry. My wife wanted to belong to a family; a place to worship. I was looking for a ministry that reminded me of the old church. So we continued to search but I began to fall backwards. Things were really difficult and I began drinking again. I honestly believe it is because of the pressure, the absence of the support of a church family and we were experiencing financial delay. She was angry with me because I had gotten a DUI. I was upset with her and sat in the car. I fell asleep after drinking. Someone called the police because I was asleep in a parking lot and they gave me a DUI. Mind you I was not drinking while driving but just sleeping after drinking. They gave me a DUI anyway.

So she went back to our old church and feeling scare of what was going on with me. She confided in them and told everything that was going on with me. She requested counseling for us and she had attended a couple of services.
Before I knew we were there worshiping as a married couple. But we were still getting dirty looks and stuff. Then they began to prophesy things from the pulpit and this made it uncomfortable for her. After that my ex-wife would show up and my wife just decided to just leave permanently.

It became so difficult for us to hold it together that we thought it was best to separate for a season. I didn’t have any where to go so I moved in with a close friend and his family. His name is QHeem. I began to visit QHeem’s church. I had set up ground rules for how my wife and I should handle things after we reconciled but then we had to move into a shelter. We had to vacate our apartment. We were only at the shelter for one night. I continued to attend QHeem’s church and continued to pray for strength and direction. Later that week we moved into a huge house with seven bedrooms where each one was rented to a different tenant. My wife and I got the master bedroom.

I contemplated giving up on my family but did not. Please pray for us as I receive treatment for the disease that has plagued me on and off for most of my adult life, Alcoholism.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>This just in: Priscilla and Andre AKA B-Fade are embracing life as a married couple and giving all of us the imagine of Christ and His Bride ….Which is filled with Forgiveness …Celebrate B’s restoration and his redemption<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<


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ConversationswitCoyfee discusses The Differences in Repentance and Confession of Sin

In Believer who falls into sin, Black Church, Forgiveness, Spiritual healing on July 6, 2009 at 12:12 pm

The Difference in Repentance and Confession

Hello Family

What is the difference between Repentance and Confession of Sin?

I awoke with a very clear understanding on the topic of confession and repentance. Many Christian scholars stated that Confession comes before repentance. They will tell you that God is faithful enough to forgive you if you confess your sins.

Well what happens if you commit the same sin again? A friend and I were talking about this issue. She stated that if you continue to live in sin you are not sold out to God. I really didn’t argue that point but I stated that David, one of my favorite patriarchs, sinned often, yet “God stated that David was a man after his own heart. Samuel 13:13-15.”

I wondered about a lot of things, for example; the scripture that states if we confess ours sins he removes them and remembers them no more…Isaiah 43:25 I, even I, am he that blotteth out thy transgressions for mine own sake, and will not remember thy sins. Well, if he remembers the sinful behavior no more, how does God know that we have committed the same sinful behavior before? That one is still stewing. We as a people of God spend far too much time focusing on our failures. We are so sin conscious that we can not see the power of God in everyday life.

As I napped this afternoon, I know that the spirit of God was helping me to understand what Confession is. “Confession is the admittance of sin; Encarta Dictionary: English (North American): an admission of having done something wrong or embarrassing; verbal statement admitting the commission of a crime.”

Ponder examples of everyday life..We should allow people to come to God just as they are..This is as it should be. Remember, that Jesus calls us while we are deep in sin. He does not demand that we give up anything to come to him but he knows that once we become immersed in his goodness, we will desire to change. He will not disqualify us because we look and smell like the world. He will draw us closer to him for He longs for us to long for Him.

We the (Saved Al readies) begin to judge them. They are not changing fast enough. They still smell like the stench of this world. They are still living in sinful relationships, they are still drinking the devil’s drink, they are still smoking the herbs of the earth. How can they think that God can love them. They do not look like nor sound like what we do, Saved Al readies. Confession is to admit that you are wrong. Confession does not require you to stop doing that which is wrong. The scripture states that if you are faithful enough to confess your sin then God is faithful and just to forgive you..” period. We should not add anything else to this point.

Now Repentance, to feel regret about a sin or past actions and change your ways or habits. This is paramount. We must be spiritually wise enough to be able to sense who Jesus is talking to when he is dictating the Holy Scriptures. Confession, is the admission of sin. Confession is to acknowledge bad behavior or a negative act. Repentance, I believe is being sorrowful and desiring a change. To repent takes the Goodness of God. How will someone know that God is good? Well by the love that is shown to them in Christ Jesus. The love of the Saints seen as gentle patience. This weak one gains strength to stand against what used to weigh him or her down. Scripture tells us in Romans, it is the Goodness of God (Romans 2:4-11) that brings a man to repentance. Understand, not the brow beating of other saints that are disgusted with the look of delayed progression.

It is for the Spirit of God to begin to gently tear that behavior away from them. Now, keep in mind that the Holy Spirit knows the heart of man. He knows those that sincerely desire to walk with God though they have a limp. There were those who desired to follow God with everything that they have, because they love him. They walked slower than the rest because they have been injured in their fight for freedom. Yet, they were still walking, or crawling, and in some cases were being carried. They were determined to follow him.

Many of them looked like the world. There were not dressed for the part but still they came. They cried out to Jesus to change them everyday and every night. They read their bibles daily. They didn’t eat at all to slay their flesh. All this they did and still some fell back. Did we reach out to them? Did we do all that we could to attempt to save some? The answer is NO! We have become religious and callous. We have become the people we use to hate. When we first came to Christ, many of us were beat down by rules and regulations. Some of us were kicked out of churches because we did not dress right. Some of us were kicked out because of where we lived or we lived with. Is it not amazing that we have become what we had hated? How does God protect those, his little children? They are His prodigal children. He blinds many of them to the ways of the church. This will keep them coming so that the anointing can begin to do what we thought we could do thru talking. I have a News Flash for you! The only way to set a person free is thru the anointing of the Spirit of God.

You can talk until you are blue in the face but if you are not anointed you should shut up. God will begin to mend the tears generated by the world, the church, and the enemy piece by piece. He (Holy Spirit) begins to place himself where there used to be other things. He begins to reveal more and more of himself to them. The more of him they see the more of him they want. Are they perfect yet? NO, but neither are we. We the Saints or the Saved Al readies, sin daily either by thought or deed.

Why then does not every person, confess their sins and repent of their sinful behavior? I believe a lot of that is because of us, the Saved Al readies. We can be really mean and short cited. We will throw the baby and the bath water out together.
Now, I am not stating that we should not teach from the Bible, whole the truth. However, we should not teach our opinion, nor our interpretation, but just the word of God. His word has healed many a broken spirits. He, who is the potter, knows how to gently press out the blemishes that have marred our precious souls. He softly places us on the pottery board to adjust our damaged inner parts. He can repair us all. No matter what activity or life style we chose before we knew him. He can and will repair us.